Yes, again i'm falling in love with some one.
The one that i always called him 'Mr.NF'.
I believe him.
I trust him.
And i Love him.
At first i was like 'what ever' when i know that he said he love me.
I know it from my friends.
He even change his guild nick name to this
I Love XiaoMeaow
But i don't trust him.
Because i've been hurt so many times.
So i decide to build a wall and won't let him take away my heart.
But when he said this to me
When you really love someone, age, distance, height ,weight.. Just a damn number.
My heart been taken away by him.
It was the first time someone have tell me that.
But day by day,
he don't even speak to me.
So i decide to give up on him.
And i quit the game about 1 week.
But then when i on,
he asked me,
' Where have you been? It's such a long time i don't see you. IMY. ;) '
And then i started to fall for him again.
And today.
It's was the sweetest day and worst day ever.
First, i called him and asked for help. Like this
'YukiZ (His game name) bulih ko tulung sya? '
' Tlung apa dear?' (Damn! i really happy when i hear him call me like that! )
........
And so on.
We chat and chat and chat.
Then he agree to help me. Then i say
' Sayang ko katat katat! X3 '
' Ahaha.. Bah kiss luk '
'Deii lebih lebih sda ni tauu~ XD'
'Ya meh? :*'
..........
And so he help me do the thing.
While he's helping me.
I follow his kazen.
And when i'm following his kazen.
I think it's a good chance to ask some question about him.
So i asked...
'Xin~YukiZ ada gf ka?'
And the answer really shocked me.
'Ada. Cina lagi tu~'
Yeah.
At that time i really hurt.
It's like you've been hit a million times.
I feel like i wanna run away.
But i know if i do that i'll be know that i'm falling in love with him.
So i decide to cover my pain with some fake smile.
And so.
I give up.
I don't want to be the xiao san.
Thanks for the lie.
It was the sweetest lie i ever hear.
;')
Thanks for hurting me this much.
I won't deny it that i don't care about you.
Yes i still care.
But i'll slowly don't give a fuck about that.
Thanks again Mr.NF.
:) You make my day before.
