I believe again. I hurt again. :')

Yes, again i'm falling in love with some one.

The one that i always called him 'Mr.NF'.

I believe him.

I trust him.

And i Love him.

At first i was like 'what ever' when i  know that he said he love me.

I know it from my friends.

He even change his guild nick name to this

I Love XiaoMeaow

But i don't trust him. 

Because i've been hurt so many times.

So i decide to build a wall and won't let him take away my heart.

But when he said this to me

When you really love someone, age, distance, height ,weight.. Just a damn number.

My heart been taken away by him.

It was the first time someone have tell me that.

But day by day,

he don't even speak to me.

So i decide to give up on him.

And i quit the game about 1 week.

But then when i on,

he asked me,

' Where have you been? It's such a long time i don't see you. IMY. ;) '

And then i started to fall for him again.

And today.

It's was the sweetest day and worst day ever.

First, i called him and asked for help. Like this

'YukiZ (His game name) bulih ko tulung sya? '

' Tlung apa dear?' (Damn! i really happy when i hear him call me like that! )

........

And so on.

We chat and chat and chat.

Then he agree to help me. Then i say

' Sayang ko katat katat! X3 '

' Ahaha.. Bah kiss luk '

'Deii lebih lebih sda ni tauu~ XD'

'Ya meh? :*'

..........

And so he help me do the thing.

While he's helping me.

I follow his kazen.

And when i'm following his kazen.

I think it's a good chance to ask some question about him.

So i asked...

'Xin~YukiZ ada gf ka?'

And the answer really shocked me.

'Ada. Cina lagi tu~'

Yeah.

At that time i really hurt.

It's like you've been hit a million times.

I feel like i wanna run away.

But i know if i do that i'll be know that i'm falling in love with him.

So i decide to cover my pain with some fake smile.

And so.

I give up.

I don't want to be the xiao san.

Thanks for the lie.

It was the sweetest lie i ever hear.

;')

Thanks for hurting me this much. 

I won't deny it that i don't care about you.

Yes i still care.

But i'll slowly don't give a fuck about that. 

Thanks again Mr.NF.

:) You make my day before.

25/05/2012- Shit Sibling! _l_

Shit Sibling!

Gaya sama jak!

Kurang ajar!

Macam teda kena ajar bhh ulik mama drang ni!

Mulut drang kalah2 bau taik!

Tulung la arr!

Urang teda cari masalah kmu mo cari masalah knapa?

Bodoh!

Apa la buli buat.

Sudah bhh kmu kana lahir budu!

Mulut pun bau taik.

Bukan lagi bau taik. 

Tapi kalah kalah bau taik bhh mulut kmu.

Apa kmu makan?

Taik lembu? Taik Kambing? Atau taik babi?

Apa kes kmu mo olok nma keluarga kami?

Kanapa?

Lawa betul sdah la nma bapa kmu tu mo olok2 nma keluarga urang?

Tinguk luk diri sendiri kmu tu bro!

Kalau kmu secantik mna pun.

Kalau mulut kurang ajar.

Teda jugak bhh urang mo berkawan ma kmu!

Bodoh!

Knapa.

Kalau ko lawa betul tapi kalo ko taik bau juga bhh tu kan?

Makan taik sendiri plak ko ni!

Tula mulut ko bau taik!

Agak2 la sikit gaya kmu 2 adik bradik arr.

Bikin sial jak kmu ada di dunia ni.

Sorry to say.

Go die la!

Teda urang pandai sedih kalo kmu mati sekali pun.

Sekian!

11.05.2012- What your problem bro? :/

Pak Kiuu la!

Apa la ko buli dapat kalo ko luki tul ma ilmu yang ko ada tu??

Ko tingu seja bhh 1hari nti...

Ada juga balasan ko tu!

Pa kes ko bro!

Bila sya mo pinjam kijap tu buku ko tek kasi...

Pa barang!

Cakap 'no no no~' lagi bhh...

Bhh tek pa bhh...

MAKAN la ko tu buku!

Baru ko kanyang ma ILMU yang ko dapat tu!

Pa kes lagi ko p kasi rusak urang pnya buku?

Sda Nana bilang jangan ksi buka tul buku dia kan?

Mo kuyak suda ulik ko!

Ko p juga kc g2?

Urang sda ksi ko pinjam tu buku ko hargai la bhh...

Ni?

P kasi ancur lagi tu buku!

Didi pun tek suka ko arr!

Apa la juga kalo ko ajar dia?

Napa pandai mati ka ko kalo ko ajar urang?

Kalo betul2 xmo ajar bhh cakap jak la yang ko tek mo ajar!

Ni!

Cakap lagi 'ehh, sya tek tau. sya men hantam jak buat~'

Tek tau la buat pa ko p GEREJA tu kalo gaya ko tetap g2 kurang ajar!

Mo konok cakap baik2!

Tapi sindir urang!

Bhh kalo ko memang tek puas hati ma sya ckap bhh!

Pa kes ko mo sindir2 urang begitu?

Budu la ko!

Iyalah!

Ko memang pintar di mata pelajaran.

Tapi apa juga bhh ko buli buat kalo gaya ko kalah2 taik?

Pakkiuu la!!!

06.05.2012- 男人与女人的谎话

‘男人说谎是为了让自己好过，

而女人说谎是为了要让别人好过。

女人不是故意说谎，

说谎是为了让别人好过。’

太爱上面那句话了！！XD

我是从败犬女王那边copy来的~

那句话真的是太赞了啦！！

30.04.2012- Lol! This is life.

29.04.2012- Hey Girl! Fuck off! :)

Hey Sucker!

Just shut the fuck up will you?

If you write the status for me.

Please tag me la.

You scare ar?

Please la!

If you scare don't post it out la.

Sucker!

Hello!

Just go practice your english before you say la.

Punya la bikin malu!

Can and Cnt you also don't know how to beza kahh?

Lol!

Just go study in primary 1 again la if you don't know.

That simple english you also don't know.

Lol!

Fuck You Bitch!

Hey hey hey. If you say me fat. So what? I can diet. And my boyfriend don't care about my body size. What can you do about you face huh? Go plastic surgery? You say me trip cute? Please la! You're the one that trip cute in front other people okay? Baik konon? Hello. I can say that i'm not 100% good. But at least i'm good than you. Loser! 

ps: And ofcoz. I wonder where you came from. From the Philipin? Lol. I don't expect you english is good but why your BM is also bad? Tdi? Are you truely mean tidak? And so you mean that you are so pretty? Sorry but you not pretty at all. You're just a Perempuan Murah! :)

 Hello! Bila masa saya perasan sendiri tu cantik? Lol! Tulung la arr. If you don't know anything just fuck off!

'the best people cnt i trust ..' Please la! This kind of english? Urang pilak punya english pun bagus dari ko la. Before you say other. Please la! See how much is your kelemahan is before you say. Stupid! Idiot! Bitch.

28.04.2012-Hey girl. I don't need you! :)

Hey girl.

Or should i call you bitch?

:)

Whatever.

It doesn't matter anyway.

So bitch.

You want to be my friend again after you don't have any friend be with you?

Sorry to say la bitch...

I have enough friends.

If i don't have a friends like you won't kill me you know?

:)

So stop acting nice with me.

Fuck you bitch.

You know why so much people don't like you?

Ops...

Not so much...

But it's all people don't like you.

Because of your stupidness and personality.

Before,

I just act okay with you because i trust you that you will not do it again.

But again and again.

Day by day,

You getting worst.

Just like a shit!

You know what is shit?

Or you want me to tell you in a baby language?

Poo poo!

Okay?

Yeah that time the first time i'm mad you and yell at you.

Ofcoz you will shock.

Coz i never yell at you before.

Before,

I respect you and don't want to kasih malu you depan orang.

But now.

I think i don't need to yell at you anymore.

Coz you already kasih malu yourself depan orang.

So.

First,

You mad me and don't want to be my friends.

What i do is finding a new friends and i don't give a shit about you.

Second,

You became P'doy and Meana best friends.

What i do is became everyone best friends.

Third,

You just yelling at P'doy and Meana about the science presentation but you don't even help them when they do the things.

What i do is feel bad for P'doy and Meana because i don't tell them about you never help in the presentation i say like this because i also kena like that.

Fourth,

You loose you friends and nobody cares about you.

What i do is having a lot more fun to have a new best friends.

And last one,

You be nice with me and want to be my best friends again.

What i do is just smile and walk away. In my heart saying 'NEVER!'

Before,

I think best friends is only one.

But after this kind of things happen,

I realize that.

Best friends is not only one.

You can have many of them if you really want to let them be your best friends.

Now all the student in 3 Anggerik class is my best friends except of you!.

  

Yea she is bad but i love she :))

Yea..
She was bad..
She was naughty..
But..
Yea im in love with she..
:))

She always say some bad words..

But i knw she was kind in her heart..

She always complaining about others..

But i knw she just need someone to listen to her..

Sometimes she keep silent..

But i knw she just need someone discover that she was there although she is silent..

She drink some alcohol..

But i knw she drink it cause if anythings bad happen she still can have a clear mind..

She always smile..

But i knw sometimes she was just covering her pain..

Sometimes she act like a child..

But i knw she was just need someone to care about her..

Sometimes she cried..

But i knw she cry not because she was weak,but it was because she was strong for too long..

She sleep..

Cause she was tired for all the fake smile..

She was a simple girl..

She say what in her mind..

Although it was mean..

Because of that many people don't like her..

So she just gonna act like she was okay..

So she always put on the fake smile to hide all the pain..

Because of that all..

I begin to love she..

Care for her..

Because i knw that she was actually weak..

Babe, I Heart U

;))

21.04.2012- Ma baby will also using this blog!! ❤

Oh yeah!

Ma Baby will share this blog with me! :)
Please be nice with him or else you will test a things that called blood at your mouth. :) 

So let me introduce ma baby! ;)

Ma baby is a boy! ( Ofcoz la coz i'm not a lesbian! :) )

He is 17 years old this year.

His birthday is on 28th February 1995.

He now school at Korea until next year.

He have a pretty face. ( And ofcoz many people like him -.-'' )

He have a big sister and a small sister.

He like to playing guitar.Sometime have practice some magic trick.

He like to SS. But not always put on facebook.( But i can conform that his picture in his phone is more than 500++ -.-'' sweat )

He like playing basketball just like me! XDXD

He was tall maybe 183cm like that :o.

What lagi arr...

Aha!

And the most important is He is taken and his girlfriend is Me!

Yiwen!

:)

   I love you more than,
Spongebob love jellyfish,
Sandy love karate,
Mr.Crab love money,
Squidward love his clarinet.
Baby, i need you like,
Planton need the krabby patty secret formula. ;)

13.04.2012- Waoh!Trip nice.Fuck u girl. :)

Hey copycat!

Fuck off!

:)

Trip good konon?

Fuck u la!

Say apa:

'Saya sudah minta maaf bnyak kali sama dia mao baik sama dia tapi dia sendiri yang tidak mao kwan dengan sya. Bah biarlah kalo dia tidak mao kwan dengan sya.'

Lanjiao la u!

MINTA MAAF?

Bila masa u cakep?

Don't say like that la.

U never say to me sorry leh.

Trip good!

Always say other people trip good.

Sorry sikit ar girl.

U yang selalu trip good.

U say u cleaver?

Okay.

Then don't go school la.

U very cleaver sudah bah kan?

Till can say other people stupid.

Hey girl i think u are the one that are stupid okay?

You know u're so annoying when u sit behind me just know?

Singing my dearest Bigbang song.

Hello!

U voice ar...

Betul2 lah like shit.

Please la!

If ur voice like that don't sing so loud la.

U scare people don't listen to ur dog voice ar?

And

Kepada pengetahuan anda Teayang not a solo singer okay?

He is part of the Bigbang also.

He just have his own mini album!

And if u very interesting with Bigbang.

Please la!

Go search they information dulu la baru u minta puji talk2 with other people.

This!

U lian Bigbang leader is who also dunno.

U know kah?

Bikin malu jak u just now.

I just wanna punch u in the face just now.

Hey girl!

Next time remember to search they information before u minta puji okay?

Bikin malu.

:) 

12.04.2012- Gembira X Geram

Wuik.

I'm so happy when i see u don't seat behind me.

YES!

Finally!

She got change seat by our teacher!

Thank you so much!

Thanks god!

Finally i don't have to hear the stupid that singing like a SHIT!

Hah!

You think your voice so nice?

I think my dog voice is better then yours.

Kalah² suara anjing bah.

Voice like Dog and ofcoz your GAYA is same like your voice.

Sometimes i wonder why a people that have a dog voice, brain, face can live in a human world?

I think you better go to hell better than u stay at the human world.

Oh yeah.

COPYCAT!

Fuck u la!

Hey COPYCAT u don't have u own style kah?

Want to copy² my style.

Ow.

Sorry my bad.

I forget that you don't even have a brain to think.

COPYCAT is still a COPYCAT!

U don't feel malu kah copy² other people style?

Wow!

Is that mean that you are a faker?

Don't have own style need to copy other style!

Fuck u la COPYCAT!

Go die la!

And that chibi that i draw at P'doy desk.

Why you want to erase my name and write you own name?

Hey Loser!

If you donno how to draw blajar la!

Why u mother fucker want to change that name.

Just say it la if u donno how to draw.

I know you jealous of me that can draw a chibi and know things better than you.

Hello!

If u blajar u also can do that bah!

Shit u LOSER!

FUCK!

11.04.2012- WHY??!!

WHY??!!

WHY DO U TAKE HIM??

WHY?

WHY U WANT TO TAKE SUCH A NICE GUY?

WHY?

WHY U CAN'T LET HIM LIVE A LITTLE LONGER?

WHY?

SUCH A NICE GUY NEED TO DIE?

WHY?

SUCH A NICE TEACHER NEED TO DIE?

WHY?

...

(TAKE IT EASY. TAKE A DEEP BREATH.  DON'T CRY IT OUT. JUST KEEP THE TEARS IN THE EYE.)

...

I KNOW GOD TAKE HIM TO A BETTER PLACE.

I know god understand my feeling.

He been teaching me since i'm 7 years old.

I've know him for almost 11 years.

How can he leave us so fast?

I've almost 2 year not see him.

All those old memory coming back from the first time i know him.

He always bring a kind smile whenever he go.

I miss saying '公老师早安！( Good morning Teacher Kung. )' When i still a small kid.

And he always reply me '早安。 ( morning )' and a sweet smile on his face.

When i hear the news that he was gone.

I can't stop thinking about the old memory that i was laughing with him.

The smile that he always give i will never forget.

Maybe...

God see him suffer too much in the human life.

So god taking him to a place that he won't suffer too much like in the human life.

I think god will take him to the place called Heaven.

A place that peace and don't have to think too much about other things.

It was a great place for the greatest Teacher.

That called Teacher Kung.

Rest In peace my dearest teacher.

Amen.

 Praying for ma dearest teacher.

Amen.

11.04.2012- Hey! I know u seeing this post. ;)

Chabii~Chabii~Chabii~Chabii~Chabii~

Chabii~Chabii~Chabii~Chabii~Chabii~Chabii~

Chabii~Chabii~Chabii~Chabii~Chabii~Chabii~Chabii~

XDXD

I know u seeing this ;)

don't give other to know ma blog okey??

I dun want other to see ma blog~

LOL

This is for u Chabii~

Jeng jeng jeng~
Walaupun tiak lawa.
Asalkan ada hati bhh kan~ ;)

07.04.2012- Why so Hard?

People always asked me why it's so hard for me to trust people.

I asked them is that so hard to keep a promise?

If you can't keep a promise.

Why you promise at that time?

I'm badly injured in my heart.

I don't think anyone in this world that i can trust.

Sorry about that my friends.

I can't believe you.

I can't even tell that you're telling the truth or what?

 Among my friends.

I think that 7/10 is FAKE.

They'll just find me and be nice with me when they need something from me.

I can tell which of you guys that are FAKE.

But because of you know me for long.

I don't want to fight with you.

YOU are a FAKE friend.

I don't know why are YOU doing like that.

Is that kind of thing make u feel happy?

Are you thinking that i'm too stupid for being lied for many times and don't recognizer it?

Sorry FAKE friend.

YOU have been promise me for so many times and YOU always broke the promise.

And when i have money you're just like a glue that stick on my body to make me give you money.

Sorry FAKE friend.

I admit it when i was still small i fall for you trick.

But when i'm growing even bigger.

And i can tell what is truth what is lied?

YOU are the first thing that i wanna kick off all the time.

YOU are a FAKE friend.

Someday.

YOU will have this feeling that i feel.

Always being fooled by somebody that YOU think that was you REAL friend.

Don't ever come back to me when YOU need something.

Thank you for you Help.

21.03.2012- Disappointed

FUCK YOU!

I know i will not angry with you for a long time...

But...

SIAL!!

You really make me angry just now...

Hello!

If i'm helping the class got wrong kah??

Why just you can pungut duit class me cannot?

Kalau you yang pungut duit class!

You got eat class money bah!

Me got say anything meh?

No bah kan?!!

Just now i just want to remind you and other mah!

Why you say me like that?!

You say:

"KANAPA BAH KAU NI?! BIKIN PANAS JAK!KO BUKAN JUGA KETUA KLAS BUAT PA JUGAK KO MO PUNGUT DUIT?MINTA PUJI JAK KO TU! MO JUGAK BAH CAKAP xxx MINTA RM3! xxx MINTA RM3! EHH!'

Then you always pungut duit klas ada me say g2 kah?

Pikir bah begok!

Ya sya know la bah yang sya ni bukannya ada jawatan!

Tapi ko tu pikir ko tu ada jawatan la konok tu mo cakap2 sya g2?!

Lagi pun dulu ko pun suka tull pungut duit tu!

Ko pun pikir ko ada JAWATAN????????

Puk*ma ko la!

SIAL!

Sya cuma tulung prey jak bah!

Siapa juga pigi runding ma sidang pagi tu?

Siapa juga kana mrh2 ulik sidang pagi tu?

Sya siak 1 urang kan?

Xda juga sya ckap apa2 yang sya kna mrh2 g2?

Ada kah sya kasih mrh2 kmu slepas sya kana mrh2 ulik sidang pagi?

Teda kan!

Jadi apa HAK ko mo cakap g2?

Sya suruh ko sendiri p runding ma drang!

Ko brani?

Slalu tunjuk kuat jak ko!

Kalau ko bukan islam!

Kalau xda kakak ko!

Ko brani meh?

Macam taik siak bh ko ni!

Suka bh tunjuk2 pandai konok dia klas!

Apa guna juga ko pandai tapi pikiran ko budu?

Memang la!

Kecewa betul sya ma ko hari ni bah!

Sya sda mo baik2 ma ko tadi.

Apa ko buat?

Buat DERR!

Bah!

Jan la betegur kalau g2!

MENGECEWAKAN!

18.02.2012- Here got 2 video that i like about BIGBANG!

18.03.2012- In love with BIGBANG + so long not updating this blog :)

I just feel sorry sometimes~

I got the time but i dun update this blog...

So what?

Who cares?

No one even know i have a blog!~ 

Lalala~

This is just a personal blog bah~

So i just RELAX!!

...

I just in love with another band!

It called

'BIGBANG'

Although i dun really know them yet...

But i now know all their member name already!

(Really?I also not sure)

Here some picture of them!

 This one is G-Dragon. He is the Leader of BIGBANG.

Name: Kwon Ji Yong (권지용)
Date of Birth: August,18,1988

Height: 177 cm

Weight: 58 kg

Blood Type: A

Skills: Rapping, Dancing, Beat Boxing, Composing, Singing, and Languages (Chinese, English)

Hobbies: Drawing pictures and listening to music

Likes: Fashion, Acting, Cooking, Crispy Donuts, Dogs, Cars, The Drawing ‘Is it like stars or skeleton', books (poems, mangas, and magazines), watching cartoons, and himself

Religion: Christian

Family Members: Parents and Older Sis.

Personality: He is pretty bright…When he is quiet, he is extremely quiet. He lightens the mood a lot. He leads the group. His senses are fast, has high self-esteem and likes to be outstanding.

This one is T.O.P. He is the rapper in BIGBANG.

Name: Choi Seung Hyun (최승현)

Date of Birth: November 4,1987

Height: 181 cm

Weight: 65 kg

Blood Type: B

Skills: Rapping, Beat Boxing, Lyrics Making

Hobbies: Reading and Swimming

Likes: Theatrical Performances, Musicals, and Fashion Designing

Family Members: Parents & Older Sis

Personality: He speaks well and is extremely stubborn. He likes to be the leader of things and speaks his mind. Shy and he thinks he’s cute.

Musician He Admires: Usher, Omarion, Jay-Z, B2K

This one is Taeyang. He is the main vocalist in BIGBANG.

Real Name: Dong Yong Bae (동영배)

Date of Birth: May 18, 1988

Height: 174 cm

Weight: 59 kg

Blood Type: AB

Skills: Rapping, Dancing, Beatboxing, Singing, Languages (English, Japanese)

Hobbies: Basketball, Music, Watching TV

Likes: Church, Summer, Clothers, Game, Manhwa

Religion: Christian

Family Members: Parents and Older brother (Dong Hyeon-Bae 동현배)

Personality: Does his best in everything. Over achiever. Doesn’t like to fight. He talks about his problem with his opponent. He listens to you well and thinks about what he is going to say before

he says anything.

Musicians he admires: Usher, Omarion, Justin Timberlake

This one is Seungri. He is also a vocalist in BIGBANG.

Real Name: Lee Seung Hyun (이승현)

Date of Birth: December 12, 1990

Height: 176 cm

Weight: 60 kg

Blood Type: A

Skills: Singing, Dancing

Likes: Foreign Languages

Family: Parents and younger sibling

Personality: very strong for the youngest member in the group. He is pretty mature because blood type is A. He is shy and keeps lots of things to himself.

Musician He Admires: Justin Timberlake, Omarion

This is Daesung. He also a vocalist in BIGBANG.

Real Name: Kang Dae Sung (강대성)

Date of Birth: April 26,1989

Height: 178 cm

Weight: 63 kg
Blood Type: O

Skills: Singing

Debut: BIG BANG

Likes: Rap, Beat Boxing,Cooling

Family: Parents and Older Sis [Bora]

Personality: Always bright. Does his best in everything. When he is around people, he lightens the mood. Loves goofing off and eating. Doesn’t like showing his sadness, known to be the “happy” one in the group.

Musician He Admires: Usher, Omarion, Ne-Yo, Wheesung.

...

That all i want to write.

Hope i? can enjoy it~? XDXD